Sikiliza

Trace down all my ebony skin Feel along with it each minute texture Rise of goosebump sharp breathe I take The anticipation of you has me on edge Senses titillating as you lovingly rove me Slow or fast unsure time lost meaning In this wordless love song You play at me You nibble  String me  Stir me Awaken me...  Give me A kind of caress  that demands my attention  As I remember the familiarity of you Eyes drawn shut to contain my delights  Of folding into the warmth of joy Give these curves a little more devotion Offering each inch gentle care in place Of rebuke that rolled so effortlessly prior So love thyself ...  Each day for the time it takes to examine your reflection  That is how we will change this world....

I struggled to be  Because there are razor sharp blades  In place of tongue that tore words up Words dried up and so we learnt to cry Tears dried up and so we learnt to heave Air dried up and we felt life ebb away I struggled to be.... You have struggled to be  Because there are painful barbs  In place of tongue and so you shot these  Barbs wounded us so we learnt to cry Blood overran tears so we learnt to moan Stifled weak drained we felt us slip away We ceased to be.... We ceased to be.... Because we chose razors and barbs  To replace gentleness to hurt each other  Sharing pain, our legacy we learnt to cry Inflict suffering our choice we learnt to moan We watched things and people slip by  Until nothing could be...

I hurt, shrug and smile. 2020 When I was 9 years old CW a known violent bully in Moi Primary pushed me off the stone benches I was playing on. It was unexpected and he simply shoved me off and I fell face flat on the gravel. He walked away non plussed. No one said anything .. a few kids pointed and laughed.  Shrugs. I woke up winced and tried to wipe my tunic and clean off the blood on both my knees. I did it with quietly with tears rolling down my cheeks. I remained quiet throughout the day until now 33 years later I have written it down. One Sunday, when I was 11, DD an older boy from school who was one class ahead of me accosted me while alone near the swings at the Sports Club while I was with there with family over the weekend. He came up to me and threw a 100/- at me demanding that I take it and ‘play sex.’ I gave an incredulous and disgusted laugh saying hell no and seemed surprised... and ashamed. His face turned red and he picked his money walked awa...