Freedom and Breathing feels so good…
That night - 2.29 - mood inner and outer smile…. There is a tightness in my heart, yet freedom is slowly emerging in the casing of my chest. It is past the new moon and, for the first time in so long, I am feeling free. Who am I kidding? Those compartments in my heart that come up to haunt me steal my joy, happiness, and inner peace… I cannot keep hosting the kidnapper of my happiness and peace. I cannot keep hiding and slinking in fear, trepidation, and living half-lives. I will fight for my right to live and be in harmony with myself. I will remember and capture just how this freedom feels like to rid myself of the familiarities of bondage. I am free of the needless ruminating and chasing of clouds and being at the edge and tense and unable to breathe… I long to experience a moment where I do not worry whether my breathing will come or go…. I look forward to the joy of being. And no tightness control and force I have to wield endlessly….I ...