Freedom and Breathing feels so good…

That night - 2.29 - mood inner and outer smile….

There is a tightness in my heart, yet freedom is slowly emerging in the casing of my chest. 

It is past the new moon and, for the first time in so long, I am feeling free.

Who am I kidding?

Those compartments in my heart that come up to haunt me steal my joy, happiness, and inner peace…

I cannot keep hosting the kidnapper of my happiness and peace.

I cannot keep hiding and slinking in fear, trepidation, and living half-lives. 

I will fight for my right to live and be in harmony with myself.

I will remember and capture just how this freedom feels like to rid myself of the familiarities of bondage. 

I am free of the needless ruminating and chasing of clouds and being at the edge and tense and unable to breathe…

I long to experience a moment where I do not worry whether my breathing will come or go….

I look forward to the joy of being. 

And no tightness control and force I have to wield endlessly….I long just to be and enjoy the present moment freely.

My new self contract is to enjoy and be in the presence of life-giving life-fulfilling spaces.

Those places where dreams grow…life thrives, and where we are not afraid. Not of the earth, the sun, the wind, and the rain.

A new contract that has my name, my stamp, my essence all over it. 

I recognize myself in this contract, and it is beautiful.

Freedom smells so good

And breathing feels fantastic.

That night - 2.36 am - mood inner and outer peace….

Remember this and remember to take it to every moment of despair; 

all you need is to breathe 

taste the freedom

it is close

round the next corner

you felt it before and 

I promise you will feel it again.