Sikiliza

Eldoret, Feb 26 2017 listen to the sound of silence Sit unobtrusively around it,  Find that soothing vibrant calm voice of YOU.   look intensely into the darkness Stare into the bottomless-ness as it drowns you, Release yourself into the black warm embracing YOU.   Let yourself feel everything everywhere The wholesome depraved and dreadful,  Sensation embodies life because you are, YOU.   taste an assortment of varied blends of moments  Devour both parallels of everything and nothing-ness Accept that the unceasing constant here is YOU.   Pick how you touch those in your life Open yourself to a world of possibilities, Bare all the awesomeness of YOU.

As a feminist I believe in equality because ‘the boy child’ could really do without a skewered SYSTEM that sets him up for as much failure as it does ‘the girl child’….. and it starts when we have to explain to you that gender roles  are not set in stone but at the backyard of a effed up hierarchal SYSTEM that reduces people have to pick from two opposite sides. For instance the narrow gender roles of so called ‘masculinity’ and ‘femininity’… and we all know you cant be ‘masculine’ or ‘feminine’ enough its a perpetual aspiration!…. so this crazy SYSTEM keeps making you think and say crap things like "a REAL MAN does xxxx’ or ‘a TOTAL MAN does yyyy’ and effed up things like ‘AS A WOMAN’, you must be xxxx" or nonsense like ‘IMAGINE A WHOLE WOMAN, or as ‘A MOTHER(??)’ and she had the audacity to do yyyy.’ It is a system designed to make you feel inadequate and to make you feel you need to reassert yourself and your identity based on very narrow standards of what you can...

One of the most biggest lessons I have learnt this year has been to be painstakingly deliberate and strategic in whatever I set out to do and that it has to count for something bigger than just me.  I would like to share some of my reflections of tenets I embraced that are helping me with my ambitious goals: 1.  Think - Support & Inspiration:  One of the most understated pillars we need as activists and as women is support. Support is the unseen companion of late night deadlines, tense and difficult moments and when our bodies and minds are at the brink of letting out.  It gives an extraordinary burst of strength to keep our eye on the ball against our body and mind sensations which are many times stretched to the limits. What cant we achieve if we know that we have someone who has our back? Act – Pass it on Over the months, two formidable feminists told me that after a brief discussion with them on how to strengthen the regional women r...

Blooms from Topkapı Palace  Museum June 2016 Over the years life has visibly had its toll on me My body bears battle scars and visible signs of wear and tear My mind murky with memories of old hurts and let downs I see new wrinkles, curves, aches and dimpled parts each day I sometimes still feel the pain of old wounds and anguish Like a battleground time absorbs some of the desolation of my banal existence But then YOU... You happened in my life Awakening long forgotten passions Created new heights of delight and feeling I never imagined This radical love you give me so unmeasured, unconditional and in bounty Heals and strokes me so tenderly each day. It restores my body smoothing over my rough edges My scabs and less nimble parts of me transformed I now radiate from the inside out, besotted in your endearments You reshaped and remolded my weary self Into an attested lovevivore! Existing only in the sustenance that is your devotion...

  Things that make me happy Today, amid all the frenzied throngs of this mad punishing world: I feel radiant, as morning sunlight creeping in; warming, lighting, illuminating I feel beautiful, like a burst of colour speckled garden and neat dewy patches of green grass I feel alluring, with rhythmic sways to sounds of ‘Let me Back In’ by  Explosions in the Sky All this beauty provokes all senses and wraps me tight and close in a warm embrace… Hiding me from pain, harshness and the bluntness of cold hard reality How then can I not feel amazing today? ... Even just but for a little while….